mood: grown up?? · music: tüntolk (the happy one)
i got into the medical college. nurse. mama won. actually i won also, i want it now.so this is the last post here probably. i will keep the blog for memory. if you are 16 and wearing black in talas: it gets better. and tüntolk is NOT just noise.
xX aika Xx
mood: ok · music: tüntolk (the happy one)
the results: iradi 84, english 91, biology 79, maths 62. mama said "well, maths is a thing that happens to everyone". the college wants 70 average. i have 79. wait. i have to do the math. (79+84+91+62)/4 = 79. ok. ok. YES.dont tell maths.
mood: empty · music: none
the national test, 3 days. in the hall a man with a clock walked between the desks and every time he coughed my heart stopped. there is no Russian paper this year, they took it away, so for the first time everyone in our hall wrote in Iradi or English. Zhanyl wrote in Iradi, i wrote in English (a bad idea).writing in a hall full of people who all breathe at the same time. i wont forget it.
mood: everything · music: none
the last bell. we had ribbons and flowers, a girl from the first class rang the bell on a big boy's shoulder. my teacher cried, i didnt cry. then i went behind the gym and cried a little.
the flowers from the teachers. i gave them to mama. she gave them back. now they are in a cup.Zhanyl hugged me and said "I am not good at saying things" and then said it very well.
mood: soft · music: Kara Suu (track 6)
we have light the whole evening now. Juju's kittens (adults now) sit by the lamp like they invented it. i did homework until midnight just because i could.winter is over. i hope. mama says do not say that out loud.
aika. 15. talas. school 31. i like: tüntolk, Mor-Wave, black, rain, drawing eyes, my cat Juju. i dont like: mornings,… more
Kara Suu, track 4, on repeat since TUESDAY