mood: poor · music: nothing, i cant afford any
the dollar is 8.40 now, not 5. mama and papa talked about it in the kitchen with the door closed and the door was thin. what i understood: the cd of Kara Suu that my cousin was going to bring from Almaty now costs 70 som more. my pocket money is the same. so the cd is further away.(it is "about 70 som". i did the calculation four times.)
new rule: no more cd's. only the radio. radio is free. also radio is sad about this too.
mood: proud · music: tüntolk (the sad one, but happy)
the school art exhibition. my lantern girl from the Talas bridge is on the wall of the second floor corridor, next to a very good pencil horse (Zhanyl's). the sign says "Aika, 11 B, ink". the teacher said "very dark, very good". i heard that.
the drawing, finally scanned at the photo shop. 5 som a scan. the eyes survived.a boy from 8th class stood and looked at it for a long time. i pretended not to see him. then he said "scary" and walked away. best review ever.
mood: dark · music: tüntolk (the sad one)
some boys from 11 "A" laughed at my eyeliner on the stairs. whatever. in 10 years they will be fat and boring and i will be an artist in Paris.(or a nurse. mama says nurse.)
mood: full of love · music: lullabies (mama's)
JUJU HAD KITTENS. 4. at 3 in the morning in the wardrobe, on my black sweater, of course. two black, one grey, one with a white sock. mama said "we are not keeping them". four days later mama said "the grey one stays".names so far: Bulut (cloud), Tün (night), Kyl (hair, because he is thin), and the sock one is "Sock". i know. i have no imagination at 3 a.m.
mood: strange · music: Kara Suu
school started. our class had 31 people in june, now 26. empty desks at the back. nobody sits at them, even when we are short of space. 11th class now. the stairs smell of new paint and the first-years run like they are being chased. nobody laughed at my eyeliner today. (it is only the first day.)Zhanyl is at the desk by me again. she brought a new notebook. the horses started on the first page.
aika. 15. talas. school 31. i like: tüntolk, Mor-Wave, black, rain, drawing eyes, my cat Juju. i dont like: mornings,… more
Kara Suu, track 4, on repeat since TUESDAY